I think it was the first beer bottle drawing I ever did. I was just a little kid, so it was like ‘cool’ when I finally got one. I was so happy, I couldn’t stop drawing it. I still have it.
My dad always says that in order to draw you need to feel the emotions that are going to appear in the piece. That was the case with this drawing. I felt the love for the bottle, the anger, the fear, the sadness, the grief, and of course, the fear of death – the fear of not being able to see Colt one more time.
In a way, I think this is the most personal and personal drawing I’ve ever done. I really want to feel the emotion of the drawing. The emotion of the artist. I feel like everyone should feel the emotion of their own art.
I think there’s another way to interpret this drawing. It’s not that I was angry at Colt (I wasn’t), it’s more that I felt the pain of the bottle when I drew it. With an angry drunk, it’s almost like they’re going to kill that bottle with their anger. I felt the sadness of the bottle for being able to’t see Colt one more time. And I felt the fear of losing Colt.
And its a sad thing because I feel like it could have been so much more. I feel like if I had just been able to draw that bottle in my room with my friends we would have been able to go out and have a good time. It was a nice moment for Colt to be able to go out and have a good time, but it was just a moment. The next time he sees that bottle he will be pissed, sad, scared, and so on.
Well, that’s the nature of art. I mean yes, it would have been cool to draw a bottle to keep Colt company, but that would have just been an extra thing. You could go out, have a good time, and then come back to it. Like I said, most of the time we live our lives alone.
The next time Colt sees that bottle, he will be pissed. He will be sad, scared, and so on.
It’s a small, and yet relevant, point. If we take a moment to actually think about it, most of the time we’re doing things for the wrong reasons. We should be doing things for the right reasons. So maybe the bottle is the right thing, but that doesn’t mean that we should be doing it.
For instance, a lot of people are drawn to drawing. If you’re interested in drawing, you should get out there and do it. It’s one of the few art forms that doesn’t require a ton of skill. Why? Because you’re basically drawing a picture of yourself. So I can go out and draw my own portrait, or I can spend a few hours figuring out how to draw a picture of the face of the guy that I’m with on this computer.
It’s just a fact that a lot more artists are drawn to drawing than they are drawn to painting. In the early days of the hobby there were a lot of people who drew their portraits and paintings themselves. They drew on paper or oil and then pasted them in a scrapbook and showed them to their friends. They didn’t do it for the sake of it. There were artists who drew by themselves because they were afraid of something happening to them. That is no longer the case.